falling apart

why is this happening to me and Leah, we seem to be just getting on our feet after a bad stretch then things start to fall apart.

i pissed off Leslie by telling her things i don't think she wonted to know, now her and Leah have fallen out.

we went out sat night and had a great night with old biker friends and arranged a trip out today. the night went great and i was looking forward to the ride out.

Sunday morning i looked out the window when i got up expecting rain but hey what do you know it was bright and sunny, so we set off you Paul's and when the other couple turned up we headed out. first went to the ferry port to find out some prices for a weekend in brouge way expensive and turns out my passport has expired so i wouldn't be able to go in 2 weeks time anyway. then we went to fort paull had a great time there looking round the exhibits mainly from ww2 but was a nice day and had plenty of time to look around. from there i suggested the seaside for ice cream witherensea was not far down the road so we went there and got said ice cream and a walk round.

well the weather turned and started getting cold so decision was made to head home, all was good till we hit the motorway the wind was so strong it was throwing the bikes all over the road and just about had all 3 of us off at one point with a huge gust.

we made it back to the village and i decided to call at Paul's for a cup of tea before we went home.

made it home then it went just crap form there, Jordan opened the gate for me and i drove the bike into the garage Leah went to water her plants in the green house. i had just got off the bike and was walking out the garage when i heard her scream my dog and started crying and screaming i didn't know what was going on i tried to get my lid off as fast as poss she was screaming my dog i couldn't see Ginny i thought i had run her over, Leah was looking at the pond i looked and she was there lifeless floating in the pond. i just grabbed Leah in my arms and didn't make a sound i couldn't console her. she asked me to get her out so i did and she just held her in her arms sobbing.

well i lost it at that point and blamed all the kids for not looking out for her while we was gone. its been a sombre night with not much said but i know Leah is really hurting inside.

so all in all Easter is indeed shit.