what a shite day i have had and it realy is not getting any better.
well it all started when i woke up some poeple would say its just a typical monday but not this oh no.
wakes up statled thinking i was late but as it turned i was not. ran to the toilet as i needed it by now real bad and turns out i had the runs. gets down stairs goes to the comp and say morning to etana to be told 15mins later that she was doin somthing else and diddent see me well by this time i had to leave for work.
went out the door, well knowing i have a nail in my tyre i did not take it easy at all and hammered it all the way to work, i was to cold to care i just wonted to get there. ok the next bit all happened in about 1 minuet i came up against slow moving traffic i saw a truck up ahead but dident think it was that close i had already started to overtake the 3 carswell the one in front had increased its speed some so i had to go that bit more to get in, well i did get in but only just.
by this point i had picked up so much speed the next lot of slow traffic was upon me and i had no way of slowing down enough so i powered back on and pulled out into the bend over taking a futher three cars on a blind bend well a car came round that bend and i had to futher increase speed tuck in and lay it over, made it yeah but then the fuck came as the adrealine ran out real quick.
gets to work clocks in and sits down for a quick coffee as i had to start right away today as we has a rush job on.
dennis walks in and says have you seen that note on the bench for you. well i had'nt and it turned out all the work i did on friday was wrong and had to be done again my bllod was boiling and it was only 7am already on a tight shedual i had to cut 7 more panels as well as do my normal jobs for the day i messaged etana to tell her i had arrived safe, had about 5 mins of chat then had to start work. well i went into the office checked the fax it was out of paper only two orders on it so i filled it up and a saved fax came through from a company we do alot of business with. and i just knew by the wording that it was goin to be bad news and it was.
first break comes along 9am my txt from leah did not arrive i finnish my break still no txt. 9:30am leah txt's me sorry master i overslept well it just topped off a shit morning.
went about my jobs for the day and got on very well we got out the rush order well on time.
dinner time is arriving fast about 5 to 12 i checks my phone 3 missed calls from leah. so i calls back hello master, hey babes whats up. "my bike failed its mot" well i was half expecting it this time but not to the extent that it failed on. and is now goin to cost about a 100 quid to repair and get through the mot. plus i think i need to get a new tyre for my bike wich to say the least is fukin expensive.
dinner cant eat i tried but i feel sick dont know why but just cant.
afternoon shift starts the day is dragging its arse all i wont to do is go home. i have two buildings i need to work out and cut now most of this shit is in my head from when the guy came in three weeks ago but i get them done and cut well i gets another call from leat telling me she cant get her bolts undone from her break caliper (flashes back to the light switch episode) i thinking fuck i goin to have to rebuild her fukin bike when i get home from this shit hole.
ride home was uneventfull thank fuck just wanted to chill out, but i helped leah take the straingest brake pad i have ever seen out th e check it.
well here we are having had to wait for my dinner i ended up not eating it i just dont feel hungry at all i have ahd a few beers.
etana now is telling me she has some places and is trying to see a obgyn what the fuck is that all about what is places??? and what the fuck is a obgyn and why is fukin todd knowing all this shit before i do you know the master who she adores so much why cant she tell me all this stuff and explain it to me in a way that i know what is happening to MY slave.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr gareth is now wanting me to take apart his guitar and i am trying to wright. so its now 21:35 time for another beer me thinks.
oh yeah top that i dare ya lol
Monday 5 October 2009
Saturday 3 October 2009
Humanity
you know just when i am strting to lose faith in humanity something comes along and hits me so hard its brings that faith back to bursting point.
today we went to the harley shop to get a t-shirt for etana's dad for his birthday. while we was there we got chatting to a lady in her 50's. we told her about etana's dad and why we had to get another shirt for him. anyway we was getting shelter out of the wind and she goes in the shop, she pops her head out and says dont leave yet i have somthing for you.
10 mins later she comes out and presents us with a t-shirt from the doncaster chapter of the harley owners club and says to send it to etana's dad from all of the club.
talk about amased i was in shock that a total stranger could and would do this. well i got a couple of pics and will send them with the shirts.
so happy today i could burst.
today we went to the harley shop to get a t-shirt for etana's dad for his birthday. while we was there we got chatting to a lady in her 50's. we told her about etana's dad and why we had to get another shirt for him. anyway we was getting shelter out of the wind and she goes in the shop, she pops her head out and says dont leave yet i have somthing for you.
10 mins later she comes out and presents us with a t-shirt from the doncaster chapter of the harley owners club and says to send it to etana's dad from all of the club.
talk about amased i was in shock that a total stranger could and would do this. well i got a couple of pics and will send them with the shirts.
so happy today i could burst.
Monday 28 September 2009
weekend
saturday was our 11th wedding anniversary, got up went shopping for things for the bbq got home waited started cooking about 6 no one turned up i was very dissapointed to say the least.
decided to go town well ended up being a great night witch made the rest of the better. no idea what time i went to bed as i fell asleep in the chair.
sunday i dragged my ass out of bed about 2:45pm got sat on the sofa to watch some tv and fell back to sleep. kept waking up and dropping off this went on for the rest of the evening untill leah came to join me and we sat and watched a film together. went to bed at stupid oclock and had to be up at six well by time i had woken a few times in the night i had about a hour sleep in total.
lets see what this evening brings ...................
decided to go town well ended up being a great night witch made the rest of the better. no idea what time i went to bed as i fell asleep in the chair.
sunday i dragged my ass out of bed about 2:45pm got sat on the sofa to watch some tv and fell back to sleep. kept waking up and dropping off this went on for the rest of the evening untill leah came to join me and we sat and watched a film together. went to bed at stupid oclock and had to be up at six well by time i had woken a few times in the night i had about a hour sleep in total.
lets see what this evening brings ...................
Friday 25 September 2009
hmmm
well what an eventful night last night was. two slaves pissed off with me.
had to punish them both physically wich i am realy not happy about in the slightest.
but as it turns out i am more loved than ever so it turned out well and i am glad it did.
i realy dont wont a repeat of what happened last night i just wont us all happy.
had to punish them both physically wich i am realy not happy about in the slightest.
but as it turns out i am more loved than ever so it turned out well and i am glad it did.
i realy dont wont a repeat of what happened last night i just wont us all happy.
Tuesday 22 September 2009
a little insight
Submissiveness is the incidence or trait of yielding to the expressed will of another or some display of force.
Within human relationships there may be a submissive partner. This partner may be trying to appease the others through agreeing to their command. If they are otherwise healthy this partner may be content.
People who are eager and willing to take on a recurring submissive role in a relationship or who fetishize the trait of submissiveness may seek out others that share their interest or form long term pairings based on consenting to heightened levels of submission in a relationship. This may be incidental in certain cultural or social groups, or may be explicitly expressed in others such as the dominance and submission part of the BDSM subculture.
Dominance and submission (also known as D&s, Ds or D/s) is a set of behaviors, customs and rituals involving the giving by one individual to another individual of dominance over them in an erotic episode or as a lifestyle arrangement.
Physical contact is not a necessity, and it can even be conducted anonymously over the telephone, email or other messaging system. In other cases, it can be intensely physical, sometimes traversing into sadomasochism. In D/s, both parties take pleasure or erotic enjoyment from either dominating or being dominated. Those who take the superior position are called dominants, doms (male) or dommes (female), while those who take the subordinate position are called submissives or subs.
the inner conflict and surrender connected with these are enduring themes in human culture and civilization. In human sexuality this has broadened to include mutual exploration of roles, emotions and activities which would be difficult or impossible to do without a willing partner taking an opposing role.
While D/s can deal with representations of brutality and cruelty, and the emotional responses to them, adherents are quick to point out that D/s is not about acts of brutality and cruelty. It is a consensual power exchange between the two partners and need not involve any brutality (such as corporal punishment) or cruelty (verbal or emotional abuse) at all. It is primarily based upon trust and communication between the partners. It is also based on a deep ethos of mutual respect in which exploration of the emotions brought up by power exchange can occur in a safe, sane and consensual manner.
A safe word is usually given to the submissive partner to prevent the dominant from overstepping physical and emotional boundaries. The safe word is especially important when engaging in verbal humiliation or playing 'mind-games' because the submissive may not be aware of an emotional boundary until it is crossed. If an emotional boundary is breached and the safe word called, the dominant should cease all play immediately and discuss the emotional breach with the submissive in a tender and understanding manner. Negotiating limits in advance is also an important element in a D/s relationship.
D/s may be ritualised or freeform. It is usually a negotiated lifestyle, with people discussing their wishes, limits and needs in order to find commonality. A D/s relationship may be sexual or non-sexual, long or short term, and intimate or anonymous. Most adherents search for the essential intensity, trust and intimacy that are required to make any deep relationship possible.
Collar. Many submissives wear a "collar" to denote their status and commitment. It can be much like a wedding band, except that only the submissive partner wears one. The traditional collar is a neck band in leather or metal, chosen, designed or even crafted by the dominant partner. Some subs wear a "symbolic collar", often a bracelet or ankle chain, which is more subdued than the traditional collar and can pass in vanilla (non-BDSM) situations. It is not uncommon for a sub to have several collars for special occasions.
In BDSM, Master/slave or M/s is a relationship in which one individual (the submissive) gives to another (the dominant) ultimate authority over them. It is a form of dominance and submission or total power exchange. The participants may be of any gender or sexual orientation. The relationship is structured in terms of slavery, because of the association of the term with ownership of the slave and the rights of a master to their body, as property or chattel. The dominant is called Master if male, or Mistress if female.
The owner/slave relationship is usually entered into on a consensual basis.
Outside the BDSM community, the relationship of master/slave is sometimes regarded as a form of consensual sexual slavery. In BDSM, a slave is a specific type of submissive. The master/slave relationship refers to the relationship between the individuals involved, and does not necessarily require any specific acts, sexual or otherwise, though sexual activity is usually an aspect of the relationship. The sexual aspect could be conventional, and not necessarily BDSM. A slave could also be a masochist or bottom, but this is not always the case.
Some participants regard the relationship as sexual roleplay, while others enter into the relationship on the basis of a highly committed, long-term, lifestyle submissive arrangement.
Some practitioners feel the difference between submissive and slave is the degree of submission. However, many who are involved in master/slave relationships see the difference as being conceptual. For example, some slaves may not have a naturally submissive personality, but choose to surrender their will and volition to another.
There is considerable debate over the exact definition of the word "slave" as it pertains to BDSM. Many people believe that a slave is someone who considers themselves to be one, whilst others believe one must be in the emotional state of total power exchange (TPE) for the term to apply.
There are differences of opinion about whether one needs to be currently in an M/s relationship to be identified as a slave. Many in the BDSM community do not feel that ownership is a requirement, viewing slavery as an identity rather than a condition.
Slave training is a BDSM activity usually involving a consensual power exchange between two people taking on the roles of a master or mistress and a slave. Typically this involves changing the slave's behavior in a manner that is pleasing to the master or mistress, perhaps instructing the slave to follow a set of rules that the master or mistress has set out.
Slave training is a learning process both for the slave (or submissive) and for the master or mistress, or dominant. Training will usually be set out and defined clearly before it begins. The master or mistress will teach the slave how to speak, act and think in a way that is pleasing to them. The slave, in return, gets pleasure from being able to make their master or mistress happy. Or, the slave gets a reward like food, a bed, etc.[citation needed]
In some instances, in more extreme relationships, it may also involve some forms of aversion training. This could include use of spanking, cropping or clamping to encourage compliance, and to permit the slave to find an excuse for complying in their own minds. This can be challenging for the dominant, because if the "slave" being trained is also a masochist, they may enjoy punishment, therefore punishment may need to be withheld rather than applied, to create the unpleasant result that the punishment requires.
Within human relationships there may be a submissive partner. This partner may be trying to appease the others through agreeing to their command. If they are otherwise healthy this partner may be content.
People who are eager and willing to take on a recurring submissive role in a relationship or who fetishize the trait of submissiveness may seek out others that share their interest or form long term pairings based on consenting to heightened levels of submission in a relationship. This may be incidental in certain cultural or social groups, or may be explicitly expressed in others such as the dominance and submission part of the BDSM subculture.
Dominance and submission (also known as D&s, Ds or D/s) is a set of behaviors, customs and rituals involving the giving by one individual to another individual of dominance over them in an erotic episode or as a lifestyle arrangement.
Physical contact is not a necessity, and it can even be conducted anonymously over the telephone, email or other messaging system. In other cases, it can be intensely physical, sometimes traversing into sadomasochism. In D/s, both parties take pleasure or erotic enjoyment from either dominating or being dominated. Those who take the superior position are called dominants, doms (male) or dommes (female), while those who take the subordinate position are called submissives or subs.
the inner conflict and surrender connected with these are enduring themes in human culture and civilization. In human sexuality this has broadened to include mutual exploration of roles, emotions and activities which would be difficult or impossible to do without a willing partner taking an opposing role.
While D/s can deal with representations of brutality and cruelty, and the emotional responses to them, adherents are quick to point out that D/s is not about acts of brutality and cruelty. It is a consensual power exchange between the two partners and need not involve any brutality (such as corporal punishment) or cruelty (verbal or emotional abuse) at all. It is primarily based upon trust and communication between the partners. It is also based on a deep ethos of mutual respect in which exploration of the emotions brought up by power exchange can occur in a safe, sane and consensual manner.
A safe word is usually given to the submissive partner to prevent the dominant from overstepping physical and emotional boundaries. The safe word is especially important when engaging in verbal humiliation or playing 'mind-games' because the submissive may not be aware of an emotional boundary until it is crossed. If an emotional boundary is breached and the safe word called, the dominant should cease all play immediately and discuss the emotional breach with the submissive in a tender and understanding manner. Negotiating limits in advance is also an important element in a D/s relationship.
D/s may be ritualised or freeform. It is usually a negotiated lifestyle, with people discussing their wishes, limits and needs in order to find commonality. A D/s relationship may be sexual or non-sexual, long or short term, and intimate or anonymous. Most adherents search for the essential intensity, trust and intimacy that are required to make any deep relationship possible.
Collar. Many submissives wear a "collar" to denote their status and commitment. It can be much like a wedding band, except that only the submissive partner wears one. The traditional collar is a neck band in leather or metal, chosen, designed or even crafted by the dominant partner. Some subs wear a "symbolic collar", often a bracelet or ankle chain, which is more subdued than the traditional collar and can pass in vanilla (non-BDSM) situations. It is not uncommon for a sub to have several collars for special occasions.
In BDSM, Master/slave or M/s is a relationship in which one individual (the submissive) gives to another (the dominant) ultimate authority over them. It is a form of dominance and submission or total power exchange. The participants may be of any gender or sexual orientation. The relationship is structured in terms of slavery, because of the association of the term with ownership of the slave and the rights of a master to their body, as property or chattel. The dominant is called Master if male, or Mistress if female.
The owner/slave relationship is usually entered into on a consensual basis.
Outside the BDSM community, the relationship of master/slave is sometimes regarded as a form of consensual sexual slavery. In BDSM, a slave is a specific type of submissive. The master/slave relationship refers to the relationship between the individuals involved, and does not necessarily require any specific acts, sexual or otherwise, though sexual activity is usually an aspect of the relationship. The sexual aspect could be conventional, and not necessarily BDSM. A slave could also be a masochist or bottom, but this is not always the case.
Some participants regard the relationship as sexual roleplay, while others enter into the relationship on the basis of a highly committed, long-term, lifestyle submissive arrangement.
Some practitioners feel the difference between submissive and slave is the degree of submission. However, many who are involved in master/slave relationships see the difference as being conceptual. For example, some slaves may not have a naturally submissive personality, but choose to surrender their will and volition to another.
There is considerable debate over the exact definition of the word "slave" as it pertains to BDSM. Many people believe that a slave is someone who considers themselves to be one, whilst others believe one must be in the emotional state of total power exchange (TPE) for the term to apply.
There are differences of opinion about whether one needs to be currently in an M/s relationship to be identified as a slave. Many in the BDSM community do not feel that ownership is a requirement, viewing slavery as an identity rather than a condition.
Slave training is a BDSM activity usually involving a consensual power exchange between two people taking on the roles of a master or mistress and a slave. Typically this involves changing the slave's behavior in a manner that is pleasing to the master or mistress, perhaps instructing the slave to follow a set of rules that the master or mistress has set out.
Slave training is a learning process both for the slave (or submissive) and for the master or mistress, or dominant. Training will usually be set out and defined clearly before it begins. The master or mistress will teach the slave how to speak, act and think in a way that is pleasing to them. The slave, in return, gets pleasure from being able to make their master or mistress happy. Or, the slave gets a reward like food, a bed, etc.[citation needed]
In some instances, in more extreme relationships, it may also involve some forms of aversion training. This could include use of spanking, cropping or clamping to encourage compliance, and to permit the slave to find an excuse for complying in their own minds. This can be challenging for the dominant, because if the "slave" being trained is also a masochist, they may enjoy punishment, therefore punishment may need to be withheld rather than applied, to create the unpleasant result that the punishment requires.
Monday 21 September 2009
welcome
ok this is my blog so it seems lol.
dunno what i am goin to put here yet but i have all this space so i guess i will wright somthing lol.
dunno what i am goin to put here yet but i have all this space so i guess i will wright somthing lol.
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